Phrases of Womanhood

Dedicated to Ntozake Shange

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Before I came to the grid, I had the opportunity to be the “Lady in Green” in a stage production of ‘For Colored Girls…’ put on by a group of my friends and I.  That book, choreopoem to be more accurate, was so revolutionary and life altering. It started to awaken part of me I didn’t even know lay dormant. In my journey of self-discovery, I had stumbled many times and tried to pick myself up.  In truth, I still struggle with many things I find wrong with myself. And I work on them slowly but surely as I am capable.  But every day I try to be a little bit more gentle with my psyche, my soul.  And handle myself with more tenderness than I used to.  I don’t always succeed, mind you. None of us really do.  But that struggle, that push…I feel like that the opening piece speaks to this in many ways in this magnificent piece of literature. This book it began to empower me in ways I didn’t know nor was I familiar with. It further helped me stay on the path to finding my voice.

Earlier this week, we lost the deliverer of this affirming message to women and it reminded me of the phases we go through as people, not just women.  But it also reminded me that I am very much a woman; a black woman who is learning to handle herself warmly…constantly working on not only writing the song of my life, but singing it every day to stay in the light.  So, I wanted to share this excerpt with you all because I love it so much.

“somebody / anybody
sing a black girl’s song
bring her out
to know herself
to know you
but sing her rhythms
carin/ struggle/ hard times
sing her song of life
she’s been dead so long
closed in silence so long
she doesn’t know the sound
of her own voice
her infinite beauty
she’s half-notes scattered
without rhythm/ no tune
sing her sighs
sing the song of her possibilities
sing a righteous gospel
let her be born
let her be born
& handled warmly.”
Ntozake Shange, an excerpt from “Dark Phrases” a poem from the book ‘for colored girls who have considered suicide/when the rainbow is enuf’
Rest in power, Queen Ntozake.

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Watching Over All…

Perched atop her throne, the Spirit Princess monitored the graves at beYou Cemetery.  She watches as the living bestow their offerings to the Lord of the Dead so as to avoid punishment and served as the guide to wayward spirits who had passed on during the previous year so as to help them cross the veil peaceably to their new home.

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Oh how the little children would run into the cemetery, dressed in costume to protect themselves from the wrath of those who were not ready to leave. Little did they know she was in the trees watching over all to keep them safe from harm and ensure none of her new family remained stuck in between the worlds.  A watcher she was; a purveyor of spirit and flesh.  She stayed and watched until all departed had crossed over, the veil was lifted and dawn finally arose.

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Waiting in the Corner…

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I was walking to my next rendezvous point and I thought the address was a tad shady. The setup: I was to seduce my mark and entrap him.  Everything was perfect: my hair, the clothing, my makeup…PERFECT.  But I digress. Something felt…off; way off.  This didn’t feel like any other assignment. There was a lingering of imbalance in the air.

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As I reached to grab the doorknob to enter the hotel, I heard a sound.  Nothing that a regular person would have detected, but a sound that was misplaced for this part of town.  I loudly opened the door and fake walked into the hotel so as to make it seem like I went inside, but went flush to the wall instead to stake out who was approaching; pistol loaded in case I needed to shoot…my hand covering the piece in case others walked past. The footsteps became heavier and slightly uneven in tone, suggesting this person had an injury.  A few more seconds and I’d know who was on my tail.  Until then, however, I’ll wait here in the corner until my prey is revealed.

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Midnight Snack

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I can’t sleep.  Just as I got comfortable, my tummy growled something fierce. So I tiptoed downstairs so as not to wake my niece and found my stash of snacks (snaaaaacks) and my go-to main food: chickeeeen!

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Oh my stars it was so good; like eyes roll into the back of your head/slap ya mamma/beat ya daddeh type GOOD!  I almost fell off the counter! And nothing to wash it down like some chips and a slurpee. Ahhhhhh *burps softly and giggles*

Ok. Back to bed for me.  *yawns and stretches*  Ni niiiii

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Hangry Mommy

Ooh I am so angry right now!

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So after treating myself to a new do over at the salon, I thought it’d be a good idea for me to head on over to the carry-out and pick us up some wings.  Y’all just don’t know…these wings, I drive across the grid for these wings!  But when I get there, everything looks different!  The street is all murky, Officer Friendship’s car is partly in a building and no one is around.  Then all of a sudden, I hear growling and for once it’s not my tummy.  So I turn around and see this gang of zombies trying to come up on me.

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Look. I am hungry, hormonal and all I want is to satisfy this never ending craving for chicken and y’all wanna press up on me, while I’m looking cute? Oh heeeeeell to the nah! I grabbed the stranded cross bow and gun, strapped them on and loaded up!  I shot a few and got blood on my cute outfit and that just made me even more angry!

Listen here Zombies: what you’re NOT going to do today is ruin my new do, my clothes and keep me from my chicken! We have got too much going on for you to think you’re just going to come for me. No sir, not today!  I need…NEEED this chicken!  I’m packin’ and I’m piiiiissed!  You will NOT stop me from getting my chicken!  Out of the way, you bastards!

*mumbles something about them got her up here goin’ all Black Betty on their asses over some damn chicken…* smh

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