It’s Okay (an Epiphany Over Coffee)

It's Okay (an Epiphany Over Coffee)

So I am having my afternoon coffee and trying to relax and finish this blog before my timer runs out.  As I was typing this blog, real life took a bit of an unscheduled hold and I had to place this typing on the back burner.  Thinking I had enough time, I didn’t request a reset and came back in what I thought was enough time to finish.

However, as I was typing this up, I received the notification that one of my sponsored accounts was suspended in Blogotex because of a time-out.  I messaged my sponsor, apologized for the late entry and wished them well, acknowledging that it was my misstep and that I’ll just work on improving my blog so that in the event there is ever another blogger search for them, I can better serve them at a later date.

Let me go back a smidge. September I was away from SL and blogging due to a RL health incident that, while I went into detail publicly on Facebook, I didn’t really go into great detail here.  And since I’ve been home, I’ve been playing catch up and trying to get back to a new normal in my regular flesh and bone life as well as trying to get back into the swing of things in here and I gotta tell you, it’s super hard. I am so behind schedule everywhere it’s ridiculous.

I’ve tried to do so many things since I’ve been back home from my forced hiatus and as much as I would love to pretend that I can handle everything; I can’t. And that’s not to make excuses. I’m missing deadlines left and right, feel like I’m failing miserably in regular day-to-day activities and just wishing that I could get a break somewhere … in either world.

And as I’m sitting here trying to enjoy this cup of coffee, it hit me. We’re not meant to always be able to keep up. And sometimes things will just unravel. It’s not something I like and want to do, but it is something that I’m learning to accept.  I can’t do everything the way I used to.  And that may result in me losing out on things, be they opportunities, sponsorships or even going out to hang with my peeps.  And that’s okay.  Like … that’s the epiphany: it’s okay to fail. It’s okay to not have everything under control.  And it’s okay to let things go when you can’t do them the way you are used to doing them.

So, slowly but surely, I’ll have to dial things back some.  Slowly but surely, I’ll have to say no or say I can’t do things.  And I have to learn to be okay with doing that.  Because this feeling overwhelmed thing is really not where it’s at.  Anyway, time to start looking at what I realistically can do…everywhere.

❤ Kilo

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Clothing & Accessories

Body & Makeup

Background & Additional Information

  • Backdrop: CK Elite Studios ~ At the Park Backdrop Box
  • Pose: K&S – // A minute for coffee // Bento poses
  • Additional Lighting: Lumipro

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Picking Up Supplies

Picking Up Supplies

Ok. Let me check this list:

  • Chips & Dip
  • Cereal & Milk
  • Hard Mike’s
  • Candy
  • Sodas for the cooler

I think I got everything for the trip! Time to go pick up the kids and then we’re off for the weekend!

❤ Kilo

DEETS

Clothing & Accessories

  • ☘ Outfit: .Q. Placid -FATPACK-  (former Curves Event item)
  • ☘ Rings: Avada~ Ilyena Rings (for Maitreya ONLY) @ SWANK Events
  • Phone: e.marie // Text Back Phone – Girl Boss

Body & Makeup

  • 🌈 Hair: [RA] Stella Hair – Fatpack (former Tannenbaum item)
  • ☘ Hairbase: Avada~ Amari Hairbase @ Hair Fair 2019 – Blonde Sim
  • ☘ Nail Polish: CAZIMI: Fantasia Nail Appliers (former Designer Showcase item)
  • All other body basics not listed can be found here.

Background & Additional Information

  • Car: Pro Street Cars – Commander [Civilian & DUB]
  • ☘ Food: Junk Food
    • Junk Food – Cooler (Fatpack) (former Liaison Collaborative item)
    • Junk Food – Grocery Bags (coming soon to Sanarae)
    • Junk Food – Saturday Sale Drinks (FunnyDale Farms)
  • Shot on location at Giggity‘s (a beYou Grocery Store Affiliate)

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My Seester’s Keeper (An Open Letter)

My Seester's Keeper (An Open Letter)

(Photo credit: Kenyatta May Wachmann)

My real life half-sister (and one of my real life half-brothers) passed long before I was born so I never knew them. And my three half-brothers I didn’t have much of a relationship with; all significantly older.  And though I do talk to two of them more now than I did growing up, I never really knew what it was like to have siblings until I came to Second Life.

I have quite a few siblings now. More than RL and more than I ever expected to have. Each one is their own unique person; all nationalities and sizes.

This special one here is my kid sister, Kenyatta.  She’s mouthy, a brat, impulsive, quick-tempered at times, hi-fucking-larious and more than anything…she’s genuine.

I have known her for going on 3 years and she’s been my sister for the better part of 2.  How we met?  At a Lesbian club/safe haven where her overly flirtatious mouth made me wholly (WHOLLY) uncomfortable when I wasn’t laughing my ass off at her antics! LMBO

In the time I have been both her friend and family we have pissed each other off, made each other laugh til something spilled from somewhere (at least she has for me 😛 ), cried together, held each other when the other needed and patched each other up from enough emotional & mental scrapes that you’d think we were war veterans. We still laugh over the fact we have both dated a couple of the same people prior to either of us knowing one another!

There are days we have scolded each other as though we were parent and child. And days where if anyone on the outside were looking in and didn’t know better, they’d probably assume that we have some sort of virtually incestual relationship (ah the joys of SL and the misconception of SOME familial ties – relax folks…not all families screw their relatives).

Overall, this woman…the woman behind the avatar…is more a sister to me than any flesh & bone sister I could had hoped to have in my real life.  And to see her have blossomed over the past year and some change has been a true marvel. She has become more independent, more self-aware and with every breath stronger than she has been the day before.

She deserves the world and a whole lot more.  And anyone who has her in their life is damn lucky to have her in any capacity. I pity those who don’t realize (or take for granted) what a find she truly is. You will never find a more steadfast person than this crazy Alabama woman.

She has one of the biggest hearts I’ve ever seen.  And she would literally give the last coin in her purse to someone she cared about if she could.  There aren’t many people like this in any world.  And I just wanted her to know that I see her; that I love her immensely and even though she wasn’t baked in the oven nearly as long as I was, that I treasure our friendship as well as our seesterdom more than she’ll ever know.

Thank you for being my friend, Kenya. But most important thank you for being my sister.

❤ Kilo

DEETS

Clothing & Accessories

  • Romper: ReignxFlite. – Rompim/Romper Set (former Uber item)
  • Kenya’s Details: I have absolutely no idea! I forgot to ask. LOL

Body & Makeup

  • ☘ Hair: ICONIC: Talia (former Liaison Collaborative & Saturday Sale item)
  • All other body basics not listed can be found here.

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Movie Night!

Movie Night!

We finally finished the movie room!  And of course, the fresh smell of movie popcorn had the munchkin craving some. So tonight we decided to make it a Blockbuster evening and put some Mr. Bean up on the big screen.  A few dranks, some popcorn, nachos and I think she passed out before the movie even got started. LOL

Welp!  More nachos for meeeeee!

❤ Miss Kilo

DEETS

Decor & Other Information

  • TV & Speakers: [FOURTH WALL] Curve Multimedia TV – Wall (former Fifty Linden Friday item)
  • ☘ Soda Machine: Junk Food – Fountain Drink Machine (Black) (former Level Event item)
  • ☘ Grocery Bag: Junk Food – Bodega Bag Gacha: Candy Bag
  • ☘ Fried Chicken: Junk Food – Chicken Bucket
  • ☘ Corndogs & Napkins: Junk Food – DIY Movie Snack Bar (former Liaison Collaborative item)
  • ☘ Nachos: Junk Food – Nachos Machine & Nachos (former Liaison Collaborative item)
  • ☘ Popcorn: Junk Food – Popcorn Basket (former Equal 10 item)
  • Table: Invidah* Kirkland Movie Rm Table
  • Chair w/ Blanket & Dog: KonvictionZ – Family Leather Recliner (Black)

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Primate Lunch Date

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I finally got a chance to go visit the animal babies!!  Rufus George was having a bit of trouble getting his banana open so I helped him and fed him. Baby Pepper was just happy to see me and sat on my lap.  Magoo was somewhere but no idea where. I guess he wasn’t hungry. But I’m a very lucky monkey momma!  So glad we can have days like this on the island.

❤ Miss Kilo

DEETS

Clothing & Accessories

  • ☘ Outfit: Cynful Andrea’s Set @ faMESHed
  • ☘ Anklet: [Sheba] Eye anklet (former Fly Buy Friday item)

Body & Makeup

  • Hair: Wasabi // Deanna Mesh Hair (former Fifty Linden Friday item)
  • ☘ Head: [AK Deluxe] – Cleo Bento Head (group gift until 06/20/2019; 1L after the 150L group join)
  • ☘ Eyeshadow: ::SG:: HD19 Eyeshadow for AKERUKA DELUXE HEADS ONLY!
  • ☘ Skin: [AK Skin] – Meg skin Gift ($1L marketplace gift only)
  • Shape: KJIm – Mahoney Shape (coming soon)
  • ☘ Nail Polish: CAZIMI: Birdsong Nail Appliers @ Designer Showcase
  • All other body basics not listed can be found here.

Background & Other Information

  • Pose: my own. still work in process.
  • Banana Prop: Sm Peeled Banana (not available)
  • Rum: Junk Food – Spiced Rum @ The Liaison Collaborative
  • Monkey on Knee (Pepper the Orangutan): *[Black Bantam] My Baby Orangutan Ash Bald
  • Monkey on Ground (aka Rufus George): Zooby Vervet Monkey
  • Backdrop: Group Gift – The Monkey Island – The Bearded Guy (50L Group Fee)
  • Additional Lighting: Lumipro

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